4.25.2007

Today has totally sucked. I went to bed thinking everything was going smoothly with my paper. This morning, I woke up to find two email messages in my box. One was from the lone hold out on my paper. He pretty muched trashed my paper and came across as it being junk. He wants to take my paper in a totally different direction than what I desire it to be taken. Because of that, another one of my committee members decided to switch sides and would not sign it. My chair does not understand what is going on. He thinks that I am caught up with deparment politics. Neither one of my friends here on campus understands what is going on. I talked to the head of the history department and explained what was going on. He said that he will talk to my committee. My paper being approved is not a voting processes but a concensus of my committee members. Hopefully, he will make some headway with them. I also emailed the head of the graduate college explaining what is going on. He is allowing me to still walk in May because I am moving this summer. He offered great encouragement too which I really needed. My hold up is my committee. The progress I thought I was making was dashed in two emails early this morning. I can't eat. I am so stressed out about this. I do not understand why my lone hold out waited so long to get back to me. I had been emailing him since spring break my paper. Before that I was emailing him asking for direction for my comps. Everytime, I went by his office to talk to him, he came across as I was bothering him and that he did not wish to discuss my paper with me. I wish that this had happened weeks even a month ago instead of three business days before the deadline for my thesis to be submitted.